The unknown is here

Hi, how are you doing? A hard question to answer nowadays, right? 
In my letter last month, we were starting to get used to this new reality. Trying to “get ready” for the unknown. Now, we are on week 737560 and what feels like the edge of it.
The unknown is here. It’s not next month, it’s not at your neighbor’s, or in another country. It’s right here. It won’t announce itself, knock on your door and say “Hey, Unknown here, nice to meet you”. 
The way we experience it, is really what makes it scary, difficult, hard or fluid, perhaps even creative, in no particular order. The way we hold this experience inside of us during this time, will be what defines us more than the circumstances itself. 
There is a slight difference between intellectualizing what we are feeling right now and actually being on it. Our mind, in it’s savvy fashion, will find a way to make sense of what we are feeling without actually having to go there, somehow it tries to get by under the radar. 
This unknown is asking for a constant reopening of us, as if we could find tiny pieces of shelter along the way in between pauses for deep breaths, in moments of losing and finding ourselves over and over again. This is it, this is us messily learning how to live without a future (as we know it). This is where we meet ourselves where we are and when we touch uncertainty, we are actually holding our reality much closer and are able to find some clearing in it, maybe some liberation. Feet on the ground, heart open, right here.

With love, 
Mariana